The title of this blog came from a fortune cookie I opened one night. I thought it was the most simplistic way to justify being happy. At the time, the words rang so true. There didn't seem to be any reason to be unhappy, let alone in despair. But I'm sure anyone would agree that its easy to have that perspective when everything seems to be aligned.
That's my weakness. I like consistency. Because of this, the moment one thing in my life begins to go awry, I lose control of my life as a whole. And that's the best way I can describe the last two months. James gone awry. I wanted everyday to get back in control of the steering wheel and slow down, meditate. I learned that is so much easier to say than actually accomplish. And day after day, I was riding this rollercoaster of emotions that left me happy,tired,exhausted, and broken. It could be left unsaid that is not an ideal way to live, but it had become my life.
It scared me when I started to think this was how my life was supposed to be.
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This is an old entry so who knows if you read this anymore, but I opened the same fortune cookie tonight and it really made an impact. I'm at a really difficult point in my life and I'm going to try to stick to this quote.
ReplyDeleteHope you're well.
And today I received the same fortune cookie. Despair is criminal. And I have been in despair since my husband walked put on me. Left alone to care for a house, mother with Alzheimer's, adult,children, and myself. And him, up and left for another woman. So yes, despair is criminal. But it's all I have now. Somehow it feels equal to his criminal act of spousal abandonement.
ReplyDeleteI have just opened this fortune cookie quote as,well even though it's a year later.
ReplyDeleteI'm at a really difficult time in my life as well.
Almost homeless and was jobless.
I'm putting the pieces of my life back together now.
I will follow my heart from this day forward. Life's too short to sweat the small stuff.
It's the little things that count.