Renewal

Forgiveness is a very tricky thing. Its a virtue that I've always told to follow. People make mistakes; no one is perfect, yada yada.

I remember forgiveness always playing a big part in the sermons at church. Yes, church. There a middle school/high school phase where it encompassed a majority of my time. People were always talking abou forgiveness. "Jesus forgave us, so we can forgive others" played like a broken record. That's such an easy to hum, but I'd always wondered if any of these people followed it.

One sermon at church about forgiveness entitled "Forgive, but Not Forget" always stuck out to me. To me, that felt only going half way. And by remembering, could you really ever forgive someone?

All of these thoughts became pivotal to my life recently. and I had a million things to contemplate. Words like "forgive" , "forget", "doormat" and the like have been running through my head. I wasn't sure what to do? I could give up and just walk away, but what does that prove? I could stay and make things feel like normal again, but what about myself?

And then it hit me. Today. How could I ever walk away from someone I love? And how could I spend each day being miserable and rehashing everything over and over?

And then a principle I learned long ago resurfaced. I had to stop reacting. I had to let go. And I had to open myself up to let good energy come back into my life and my relationship.

I'm open, and I'm game. And I'm working on it. A good friend gave me advice that its always good to check up on your relationship. At first, I thought it sounded a little childish, but its so important.

I feel like I'm now running blindly, but the key is that I've got someone else running blind right beside me. And when we get derailed because a path change, or a bunch of sticks, we'll fall together.

I'm committing to making our relationship more carefree. There is no time in life for dramatics. Only happiness.


Day one.
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